2006

The fourth year has now arrived

As I think back to all the days gone by when you were here beside me
We lived our perfect lives With so many plans and things to do
We had no clue that a day would come That I'd be losing you or you'd be leaving
Or that I had to watch as you slowly slipped away and then stopped breathing

With every breath I take I will remember you
How can thoughts of you be left behind
When you forever live inside my mind
Every day, all night long and in my dreams
You're part of me and your memory Brings to mind things that used to be

How shall I go on? Is there a way?
Breathing is a lot of work to do each day
The daily struggle to live and still go on
Always remembering the day that your were born
How can I return into a world that for me appears so very wrong
Where now I'm weak and can't be strong

With every breath I take, I will remember you
Locked away in a secret corner where no one else can see
The way I grieve and the bleeding hole where once a heart had been
Were you taken because I made a mortal grievous sin?
Can it be that I am punished by an angry God
For something that I did or not being what I should have been ?

With every breath I take, I will remember you
The earth stopped spinning long ago...The day I died with you;
Then lost and wandering in the night in my dreams
taking flight to places I don't know
Never able to find my way back home
I'll have to wait until another season comes
To bring me over to that distant shore of mystery where you have gone
I will remember you till then and so Your memory will live on

This mother's heart Has known much pain and sorrow

Just in knowing you will not be with me tomorrow

God's Word tells me that on one sweet day all this will end

And in the brilliance of His Face My heart will mend

But for now my sweet and precious child Just wait for me around the bend

Where troubles are no more And there I'll have you back again

If you ever think of me Please see me as I am, not as I used to be
A desperate mother drowning in an ocean filled with tears
No difference the amount of years
He comes and lifts me from this ocean
From which there's no escape
Where I could sweetly drown myself
Not looking back, regretting my mistake
I cling to this Savior's Hand
As I feel the waters rise above my head
He brings me back to see the road ahead
He walks the path of sorrow along with me
And leads the way that I must pass
One day; one day my dear sweet angel
I will see clearly and not through some glass darkly
That blurs my vision now to where I cannot see
And there this tear filled ocean will recede
And through my spirit eyes I'll see you
Waiting in the heavens just for me

This Midi is: "I Believe in You "